
Those who know me know that I am not a baker. Baking kind of terrifies me, to be perfectly honest. All those "secrets"--room temperature eggs, perfectly softened butter, precisely-measured flour, parchment paper, etc.--to making just the right cake or cookie add way too much pressure to something I don't do very well. Cooking dinner is more my style because even if you have to substitute ingredients here and there or if you mess up the sauce, somehow it still seems to turn out and taste good.
Another reason I don't bake very often is because I have zero self-control when it comes to home-baked treats, especially if I'm the one who baked them. It's as if all that work gives me license to eat as many pieces of cake as I want. Even after I've eaten so many that I feel ill, the memory of that first yummy bite returns to me the next day, after the sick feeling is forgotten, when the boys are napping and I need an afternoon pick-me-up. This is starting to sound like the confession of a drug addict or something, but you get the idea. No restraint around baked treats in my own house.
Now we come to the point of all this rambling. Last week was ugly. I baked chocolate chip cookies, an apple pie, and sugar cookies within the span of about four days. At first I was happy and proud of myself for actually baking, but then came all that consumption (the boys helped a little, as did Stephen until he happened to get his cholesterol results back and swore off all treats), however, and then the ugly, ugly guilt. The sugar cookies were for YW New Beginnings, but since I only had to bring a few dozen, that meant there was plenty of indulging along the way. The cookies and pie had no such noble purpose, other than my own craving and indulgence.
So for those concerned friends who say I don't "look pregnant yet" or "pregnant enough for 22 weeks," rest assured, the baking frenzy has brought the belly out from hiding. All thanks to Eli's Sesame Street storybook where Cookie Monster has to wait ten minutes while his cookies bake (reading it with him sent me baking immediately after) and stupid National Pie Day that sucked me in with all those internet advertisements and articles I kept bumping into last week about Obama loving apple pie.









