January, we need to talk. I used to be so happy to see you, full of hope and excitement in turning over a much-needed new leaf in many areas of my life. You always brought out the best in me. I'd dream of the new me, full of follow-through, patience, perspective, self-control and love, all born of your presence and persistent belief in me. Lately, however... I've noticed that things are different. We're not as good together as we used to be. Do you feel it too? One of us has lost that lovin' feelin'. The new year's dreams we used to share are now squashed by the reality of what the month after Christmas in the life of someone like me holds:
1. SICKNESS. Part of life with young kids is coming to terms with the fact that one of them will get sick some time during or after the holidays, and that that one sick child will more than likely pass it to the rest of the family. It is the season of sharing, after all. That sickness always seems to spill into the new year, right when you want to be getting back into your routine or starting a new and improved routine.
2. DRAMA. I don't know about your house, but in ours illness breeds emotion. A lot of it. Crying and whining like I've never seen. The kind of whining that makes me wish I had a line of airplane stewardesses, nuns and hare krishnas who could slap my kid out of it. Someone in our house, who happens to be five years old, faked a stomach ache every day this week at exactly 7:38 am to get out of going to school. Like I said, drama. We even saw some waterworks at the door of his classroom a few mornings that took me right back to those painful mornings in September. Apparently, he didn't realize there would be more school after Christmas break.
3. TRANSITIONS. From starting the second half of the school year to moving up or into Primary, this month is always full of a few changes that my children, and as a result we parents, struggle to handle. The Primary people came to get me during Sunday school last week, I assumed because Eli was having a hard time being a new Sunbeam, but no. Eli could have cared less. It was Bennett who was having the world's biggest meltdown over moving up to the next CTR class. He wanted his old teachers, his old classroom and his old seat in opening exercises.
4. GUILT. Maybe I haven't written them down, but I've at least thought about several things I want to do better this year and have of course already managed to fail not even ten days into the new year. Maybe once items one through three have eased up a bit, I'll make another attempt. Or maybe I should just break up with January once and for all and start checking out February as my month of personal renewal and makeover. January can be recovery from December. February can be my new year.